Its all my soul desires !!

All my soul desires is freedom.............

Freedom from shackles of dreams that have rendered its control to brainless desires

Freedom from the mimicry of life where mindless habits steers our daily chores

Freedom where spirit of truth will give wings to longing devotion

Freedom where vacant crevices of life give way to clear stream of love

Freedom to love someone boundlessly till I breathe happiness all over

Freedom to let go my spirit so wild that even destiny forbids mastering the show

Freedom to let myself loose till I feel the fragments of my ownself

Freedom to plunge into the peaceful water and feel the ripples all within

Freedom to lay carefree on a barren beach under the dead blue sky

Freedom to lay naked admist nature till shadows, begin to fade

Happy Independence Day !!

Oh dear Mother; I am void of words to express thou beauty

Even the nonchalant sun during its rounds twitch its brow at your glance

Blessed am I to open my eyes cradled in your caring arms

The first sight – the first touch of unblemished love- made me fall for you

There were you---

Adorned with colourful festivals elucidating your ravishing posture

Where diversity of culture, religion and language propagates a unified message

Where fragrance of spirituality has taken a shape, fashioned from mortal brains

Where every dream of living man has found a home

Where human brains have uncovered, proud truths of the world

Where remains of mediaeval architecture still sing songs of glory and not of the mourn

Where souls of deathless bravery can still rise from ash heaps to protect thy honour

Lands might have been demarcated with fancy frozen boundaries

 but shall we mourn to have separated thy children??

Despite the atrocities of this separation,  I will smile

I will smile every time the last ray of sun touches your feet

I will smile coz I know there will be a tomorrow with brighter dawn

Coz I know one day love will usher its endless way through all human heart

And all men will be brothers, and form one family; the wide world over

iNNocENce THat waST, aNd ShAlt nEvER bE AgaIN !!

Gone are the days when a fluttering butterfly was admirable enough to suffuse a smile

When the aesthetic touch of thy grace made me stare only the beauty laid out in magnificent vistas

When my ingenuous mind surrendered to thy creation without any struggle

When eyes opened veil to morning sky to observe light shattering into golden hue

Ripples of birds’ song broke the morning silence and reached me crossing hills and dales

When the soothing breeze crept over my face and I breathe happiness all over

When I used to watch the consortium of homesick birds amidst the orange edges of the day

Or lie down and form random images out of the idle clouds sailing the sky

When I used to get drenched in the unending columns with open arms and splashed water around

Successfully weaved my paper boat & cherished when it maneuvered its way on vast deep

Spent hours casting imagination with washable sand escaping the curvy white lines of advancing foams

Still laughed when the receding waves washed away my hours of labour into ocean’s cradle

When I used to dream my hand flutter into birds and I trace the invisible magical path

Which kindled the unreachable desire which no fearless yet rationale brain will dare

When nothing unskilled as human passion could build the reality of my dreams

When answer to life was in form of black or white with no shades of grey

No darkness ever overshadowed my thoughts or eyes ever burdened with unshed showers

 Innocence that wast, and shalt never be again - Way beyond bound and price

The kid has disappeared and now a man has returned in search of the lost kid

No I wasn’t abducted, rather I offered myself and adapted, coz thats the way LIFE MOVES ON...

Its not just a Crush !!

Is it just a crush or its something more??

Why these wandering eyes get stuck only at you

With every indifferent move you make, I grow fonder of you

Even my mind can’t think of anything more than you

I can barely notice anyone else when you are around

Though lost in the crowd, yet you stand out so unique

I get mesmerized when you speak

Girl, you got a killing smile

You have the ability to blow off my mind more than a mile

I tried talking to you but the words gets mingled without uttering a word

My head begins to whir and heart pound

You were the best kept secret until I burst

I lack the nerve and I admit

I don’t deny my feelings any longer

Though I play it cool when you are around

The days keep passing, and I am still not a part of you

I know I don’t stand a chance, but I can’t get you out of my head

Everyone says its impossible to buzz your emotionless heart

I die a little every time, to realise its true

I want to be just a friend sharing every moment of yours

But grant my eyes for its part, if you see something more

Have you grown so important for me

Or are you important till the moment I let you go

I am not hiding my emotions but I have other places to be in

But still its not in my control to stop being crazy about you

I know for you it doesn’t matter whether I exist

I won’t claim possession, but neither its a mystery

I expect nothing, I just want you know that you are special

I just want you know that I have fallen for you

P.S : You are super cute

A letter to SEDRA.....

Mega ohm road,

Micro farad & milli ampere building,

Vcc volt house, MEC

I first saw you in the quest book store, donned in a blue outfit with microelectronics circuit inscribed on u. You were looking so attractive that the input signal at my brain(Vgs) was enough 2 overcome Rs 465(Vt). Even the voltage at heart(Vds) was so large than that of brain(Vgs) that i could easily ignore da price(Vt) from it(Vds>Vgs-Vt). this all set my mosfet in saturation mode & i got a amplified output 2 take you with me. The day 1 when i opened you, i found the diodes, transistors, invertors & BJT circuits were mocking at me & slowly i felt the letters like free electrons inside a conductor. All of a sudden i discovered a 1000 Megaohm resistor b/w u & me. With milli ampere supply my brain struggled hard to charge its micro farad capacitor but the total voltage was dropped across the resistor.

Now even in 3rd sem, AEC is still full of dilemma, still a coldwar is on b/w my heart & brain & i have to play the refree with its microletters. Though i have to cross a energy gap of of 5ev to understand you but still i feel the frequency of your voice is charming, even if you make my LED glow only sometime & clip off the signal rest of the time.

Therefore, i request you to act as a full wave rectifier in this sem so that for the next time a positive feedback OPAMP will be connected from my brain to heart. Or else the circuit of my heart will break and i will make you commit suicide at the zener region by applying stong electric field.

With mega watt of hopes,

Gourav

FOR FIGHTERS

I might have lost the trust of my near n dear ones,
Things might be going all against me,
Wind might be stopping me from moving ahead,
Every road I am walking on might seem uphill,
My environs might be trying to squeeze me to an atom,
My eyesight might have begun to lose the horizon of my goal,
The question of my very existence might have stood infront of me,
My ability to think and remember things might havebegun to concentrate on wrong things,
I might be struck by the first tsunami of life,

But…

Yes,I decide not to give up,
Not to allow these thoughts to last longer,
Yes,I might be hit by first tsunami
But then what?
It gives me power to face more such in my life,
I take it as a blessing of god in disguise,
I accept this failure with my heart open and hands widespread and shall turn it inside out.
People might be laughing or feeling pity on your present condition.
BUT REMEMBER
At the end of the journey its only you competing with yourself or you accompanying yourself,
I don’t consider myself a loser,
I might have been shaken BUT would stand straight again and make a difference amongst the crowd.
I have the ability and capability to achieve whatsoever I want .
A layer of dust might have covered my thought but shall soon wash away with next shower of rain.
I believe in me.
Yes, I do

c'est la vie

c'est la vie means "that's life "in french .
it doesn't matter how good r u in a relationship;all that matters is how nicely can u sustain that.relationship doesn't always means of lovers but even of friends.Sometimes u step out of a certain relation not bcoz of choice but by force of external agents n sometimes 4 da well being of ur friend n i m doing da same. I don't want her 2 be in trouble bcoz of me.i don't know whether i have da rite or not.But it was very harsh on my part 2 decide everything on my own,i i didn't even bothered 2 ask her. I called her up i said that v cant b friends nymore n just wind it up.but only i know how tough dis decision was 4 me. said dat i wont be calling her nymore. 4 da being of saying i said that but 4 da last 2 days my mind was cherishing da good moments spent with her. I was controlling myself not 2 call her so dat she thinks dat i m insensitive n all dat but y should i worry den i wanted her 2 feel da same.I was aware of da consequences of our friendship but knowingly behaved as amateur.I hopes she hates me n hates 2 da fullest.